It has definitely been a too long of a time since I’ve written anything besides an English paper. I’m not even quite sure where to begin… I’ll just start with recent events and stick in whatever event that pops into my mind. Unfortunately though, there’s not a lot that happens in my life besides school and working out.
On the workout forefront, I had a pretty extreme two weeks of physical therapy for the first two weeks of May. Wow not keeping things posted makes telling stories difficult. Ok, so in March I started going to this acupuncture clinic in San Jose that specializes in neurological disorders. The doctors of the clinic were invited to Switzerland to teach their techniques so closed the office for two weeks. The physical therapist that works there offered o stay with me to do physical therapy 8 hours a day for those two weeks. I couldn’t turn down such an offer so the brutal lifestyle of waking up, working out, going to school, working out and then to bed began. I got a little stronger… of course there’s not going to be a miracle in two weeks but I couldn't help but hope for something more than “I got a little stronger…” And it’s not like I all of a sudden decided to work out, I’ve been consistently doing it. 2-3 hours of professional therapy plus home exercises has been my lifestyle for the last two years. I’m frustrated, if you haven’t already noticed. Working your ass off is supposed to amount to something. I want something more! Here’s my dilemma, though, there’s no cure for spinal cord injury, best option is to keep your body healthy (extreme exercise has helped numerous people to regain movement), therefore I exercise to no end, but I’m getting bored and restless, but because it is the only thing I can do to help my cause it in fact is what I WANT to do. Ok so I sound slightly deranged, but I I’m hoping it conveys my frustration/ impatience.
As for school, it’s pretty awesome. I did really well this semester and even got into University of San Francisco and Notre Dame de Namur for this coming fall term. I was overjoyed. I declined for the fall term and asked for a deferral to the next spring term. I might be a little scared of going. Private university= full time school + a lot of monies. Possibility of recovering from spinal cord injury= full time workout/ therapy + a lot of monies. So which is it going to be? I do of course realize that my recovery goes under the ‘possibility’ category, but I’m not willing to give up on it anytime soon. I will walk damn it! I decided I’d go at recovery with full force for the remainder of the year and the start school in the spring with a less of focus on working out. It’ll be ok… I’ve been blessed enough to not have to think about anything other than getting better for over two years. I’ll make it work;)
Enough for now. I will definitely try to do a better job at this…
LOVE.JULIA.
